(quilt made by my bee group for my friend Patsy several years ago)
Life is not business as usual and I am no expert on dealing with crisis but here are some of my thoughts on the current situation...
A FULL HEART
Thank you so much to all of the amazing medical and essential workers for showing up and doing your jobs and making a difference. My heart is full of gratitude for each of you.
I'm so concerned about those medical and essential workers. It's hard to put into perspective sometimes. My husband is an airline pilot, and he has to travel and ride on airplanes as well as fly them. I have never been concerned for him in the past. I never for one moment worried that he would have a situation that he couldn't handle. Never. Not once. And yet I physically felt ill when he left the house this week. Because this is something he can't control. He has his mask and gloves and wipes and gel and he is smart. He takes all the precautions, but my body told me I was stressed about him leaving for the first time in our 27 years together. (I can't imagine what I would be feeling if he was and ER worker.)
I cope with stress (in general) by doing for others. If I am busy doing something to make a difference for someone else, then I'm not thinking about my own stress. This has been very effective for me in the past. (You may have noticed that I have posted 3 free patterns and tutorials in the past two weeks...yep, my idea of coping!) LOL I've also finished 3 more donation quilts and I'm longarm quilting a pile of donation quilts made by friends.
Inability to concentrate must be a side effect of the current situation stress. I can't finish a book, I can't finish a project, I can't finish a task, without being distracted or wandering off to another thing. I'm giving myself permission for that to be okay right now. Now is not the time to get everything done, now is the time to show myself the level of patience I've often shown others.
DON'T GIVE UP
I'm going to KEEP TRYING! I am going to continue to pick up books, start tasks, and make daily to do lists. I'm going to continue to finish what I can and abandon what I can't. I'm much better when I have a lot to accomplish, it gives me motivation to keep going, but I am telling myself daily that it's okay if I don't get the list completed each day.
I know this won't last forever, but will things go back to the way they were before? Do we really want them to? I am thinking about things (habits, thoughts, and activities) that I have had to abandon, and when and if I want to pick those back up. What can I let fall away for the good? What can I recreate or embrace in a new and different way? What new routines and habits will serve me better going forward? I'm not trying to figure it out all at once, but I am trying to be intentional about the choices I make and the thoughts I embrace.
Our family economics will change. I am no longer making a financial contribution to the kids college expenses. My husband's job will change dramatically very soon with a much smaller paycheck. We are financially stable, we have reserves, but things will ultimately require that we make different decisions. Our household is now four instead of two. Our family life looks different than it did before. None of these are complaints. We have each other and we are beyond blessed to have the safety net of our love.
My thoughts go out to those whose safety net is not so secure. What can I and my family do to help and support those in our community? What can we do to make life easier and more hopeful for others? I have so many questions with so few specific answers at the moment, but I know that love and hope and family and friends will get us through this strange and scary time.
Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you during this difficult time. Can I share something you are curious about here on the blog? Can I make a tutorial for something you have questions about? Can I longarm for you? Can I send you a box of supplies? Please ask me. I want to be of service to you if I possibly can.
BE SAFE AND STAY WELL
We will get through this together,